I don't feel like putting a clever title....

I don't know anymore, if half of the things I like I actually genuinely like, or have I simply convinced myself that I do. I've been thinking about it a lot and sometimes mabe you just wanna like something so much that you eventually do or you normally start to like it and then you wonder if you actually do or if you only feel 'liking it' at a level that your maturity can understand. I don't mean both mental and physical cause you can be one of the most mentally mature people in your social circle but you'll still have no grasp on the concept or even on a lighter term 'recognition' of certain .... feelings. Love is the most common feeling. In my opinion confused mostly with simple fancy or want, propelled by the need to be accepted (or to feel better about yourself by trying to feel like you understand something you do or may not. There isn't just that of course, if I said there was than I'd be even more juvenile than I sometimes think I may be. Death is a less common catalyst. Only because of it's rarity to a certain individual. If it comes at the right moment, you learn grief and aspects of what love and heartache are like. Most individuals with a higher mental maturity at a young age portrayed in media have experienced some serious life event (and the portrayal has true examples) but that can also have the opposite effect. Back to the subject. Even though you may have wanted to like something so much that you eventually did, don't those feelings still matter? I mean there's isn't a specific creation of 'true' feelings as most of what we like or feel is implemented by learning it through nurture. So if your not faking anything than no matter how inappropriate it is, if you feel a social pain (etc. loneliness,...), you feel it. In my experience I normally think through these things trying to look at them trough different aspects. It helps with simple decisions and behaviors but when it comes down to something I don't understand completely, than the only way to understand is to act on it. So far I'm sticking with the thinking....